Some days, I feel like John Coffey..."like the drink, only spelt different."
While snowed in over Christmas break, my brother-in-law and I watched 'The Green Mile'. Tom Hanks' character, a corrections officer on death row, begins wrestling with his responsibility to execute John Coffey--a larger than life man, who is so child-like that his charge of murdering two young sisters seems impossible. The orders become near impossible when the officer discovers that John Coffey has a supernatural gift to remove sickness, pain, and sometimes even death from the world.
"Mostly, I'm tired of people being ugly to each other. I'm tired of all the pain I feel in the world, every day. There's too much of it."
Some days, I'm honestly not sure where to go from there. I guess I'll keep trying...and the answer probably has something to do with Jesus, hope, and new life. But most days, I just want to say "Mostly, I'm tired of people being ugly to each other...there's too much of it."
So true, I call them "asshole days." (Pardon my French.) But seriously, on the road, in the stores, hearing bad stories, witnessing family or friends being ugly to each other, realizing that I AM being ugly to others...asshole days. They happen.
ReplyDeleteWhen they do, I try to go home and avoid everyone, even on the phone lest "assholeness" be contagious (FYI: it's WILDLY contagious).
The only comfort I find is that I saw 0.000000000056% of the ickiness in a person or myself that day. Jesus sees 100% of our ickiness everyday AND He still died for us and loves and likes us. It's enough to make your head burst. I'm not telling you anything you don't know, but thought I'd share.
You can delete this post if it's too offensive; it was really just for you anyway.
P.S. I like your embedding skills.
ReplyDeleteMeg,
ReplyDeleteYou know I'm not offended--but delighted in your genuine response. I totally agree and loved the thoughts on grace.
PS-Thanks for teaching me how to embed. :) Dork!